
I know I'm not going through what he is going through. We have different lives and the levels of everyday stress are different. Right now I just don't know if I am strong enough to handle this kind of lonliness. No matter what I do though, I'm still going to be alone. There is no getting around it. My friends have all left for college and I am stuck here, living at home with little to no friends.
As you can see, college is also wearing me down. I just feel like I'm missing out on a real college experience.
I don't know what it is about me always wanting a companion. I need just one person to listen and give me attention. I don't have that anymore and I'm scared that if that attention comes from someone out of the blue, I won't be able stop myself from accepting it. I feel sad, and so so tired. I've been trying to catch up on some sleep but my body is just wearing down. Tomorrow I have a full day of photography, children portraits for Dillards.
I hope things start to look up, until then I'm losing faith and strength. It's only been about a month and I'm feeling this way. I can only wonder what I'm going to feel like later on. A year is a long time....
1 comment:
Stacey, a college experience, ANY experience, is no more and no less than what you put into it.
You need to make a plan.
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