I Miss You

I am missing him so much. Most of the time, I'm okay with him being away but when he finally calls me at night, just hearing his voice makes my eyes water.

Sometimes the loneliness gets too unbearable and I make the phone call. He doesn't answer but I've found that I like to hear his voicemail. He called me back and was breathing very heavily. He had just finished some grueling PT. He said, "It's mean here, I forgot how mean it was."

He figured out that most of the guys who arrived when he did are probably going to be together overseas. He's getting acquainted with them and is a little relieved to know he's not alone. They'll be getting their uniforms at the end of the week but he still doesn't know how long he'll be staying. I'm not sure if it's worth it to get his address just yet, it may take a week just to get a package delivered and I don't want to miss him.

In other news, I landed the job I was interviewed for. It was challenging but I start training this weekend. I am pretty excited but a little nervous. I just want something to take up my time instead of being sad all day.

Getting off the phone when mike calls, hurts so much. He has a pre-paid phone and the minutes are running low. I can't help but cry when we're about to hang up. I hope he knows I still support him though. I don't want to make him feel bad for leaving me, because I'm not mad at him for it. I just miss him so much, I miss him.