Be Strong, Believe

I really don't know what to do with myself. Mike called me this morning from the airport in Georgia. He told me he misses me and he has another flight soon. As of this moment he is probably getting off of his second flight and possibly on his way to Ft. Benning.

I decided to get dressed and go apply for a job. I can't sit on my ass all day, crying. I've cried enough; my eyes are puffy and I need a second cup of coffee. It might be good to take a day for myself but, I want to get started on the list of goals I've made for myself. I need a job, I need to do well in school and get an apartment. Hopefully I can transfer to the College of Charleston next year.

My head is killing me, I can try to be all smiles but, I miss him. I miss him so much right now. After today I think it'll really set in that I won't be seeing him for a very long time. I've got to focus on the good things though, like sending him packages, letters, and pictures. I'm having mixed emotions I guess...I don't know whether to be sad or not. I've got worry, anxiety, sadness and love in my heart. I'm dating the army though, I guess it comes with the territory.