Death before Dishonor

So, I'm sitting here, worried. Mike told me 2 days ago that he would be heading into Iraq by helicopter. I haven't heard from him in what seems like forever. I know it's only been two days since he's called but, I'm worried.

It's different now that he is actually overseas. I no longer count on a text message in the morning. I'm trying to get used to not talking to him. I've been trying to keep busy but subconsciously I'm really worried.

I'm trying to stay positive but there are a lot of things hindering me from feeling okay. I just want to be happy. I just want Mike to come home.

Half My Heart

Is in Iraq. Mike left from his post yesterday to Kuwait. He called me from Maine to tell me he's alright but i haven't heard from him yet. He still might be on the flight to Germany. I miss him terribly. Being in the states is one thing, but being across the world is another.

I already started freaking out yesterday and now I'm just waiting for him to call. He got a nice Nikon digital camera and a lap top so he can send me photos. He also has a webcam installed in his computer so we can talk!! I need to get a webcam and then I'm all set!! I hope everything will be ok, I know it will be. I'm just trying to be strong right now.

Diamonds and Pearls

I miss him so much. I cannot even begin to explain how I feel right now. I'm a mixture of all emotions. He leaves for 'the sandbox' in about 2 weeks.

I wish he could just come home and take me away to Charleston. Our big plan for when he comes home on his leave is to pack up and get on a plane to South Carolina. We are going to spend a week in the Holy City (Charleston). We will be looking for apartments there for when he comes home for good. That's right, we're moving together to South Carolina. My parents are fine with it and I'm so excited to start my own life.

I just want him to come home to me. I'm being a good girl for him and I want him home so badly. I want all of his to be over with and I want him to be safe. I need him here... This deployment has been so hard and he hasn't even gone overseas yet. Not only will I be lonely this time, I'll be worried as well. I'm really not sure how I am going to react to him being SO far away, but I think we will make it. Mike really knows what he is doing, he's going to be fine. I miss him so much...

And He's Gone....

Just like that. Wow, I'm all sorts of confused. It was so weird having him around for a few days and now it feels like it was all a dream. I feel like his visit never even happened. Now, he's gone for 6 months. He will have his mid-tour leave in the Spring, and will be home for good, come next September.

We both became emotional, when we talked about the day we leave Florida. We will load up my car, say goodbye to our families and goodbye to this city. When we arrive in Charleston, South Carolina, I know I will begin to cry. I imagine myself saying, "I can't believe we did it, we're actually here." I can't wait for that day. This dream will remain in my mind until Mike finally comes home. I feel like my life is made up of day dreams now, they keep me sane, they keep me moving.

Mike wined and dined me the past few days. He brought me presents from TX and took me out to lunch and dinner. He also brought me flowers and a Get Well card (I've been really sick lately with Strep Throat). We had long talks about the future while we drank frappuccinos.

When he left today, we both cried. We knew we wouldn't be seeing each other for a very long time. He's flying back to TX then overseas in a few weeks. When he leaves, I'm going to be so scared. I know he's going to be completely safe, but I just want him to come home. Please, please keep my soldier safe.